The Odds Against Us


I realized something today. Life is not really about living. No, not at all. Life is loving.

Life is a series of loving people and most of them, you’ll end up not loving at all. In fact, you may even savor that bitter taste they leave when they decide they are done with you loving them. And you want to stay stuck there in that place because if you let it go – if you accept the hole that they left, whether it’s a friend or more than that. It may even be your parents or a relative if you’re unlucky enough – it hurts, doesn’t it? Because you’re not the one who made the choice. They did. They chose not to be loved by you and there’s no worse feeling than that.

You trusted and gave a piece of yourself to them. And they walked away.

And you’ll do this over and over throughout your life. Your heart will be torn and tattered and held back together by haphazardly placed bandaids because you learn that you will probably allow that wound to be opened again at some point.

That’s what we do. That’s humanity.

We love. We lose. We love. We win. We love. We lose.

And we hope every single day that it ends with We Win. I know I do.

Some people will win. Some people won’t.

That’s what life is. It’s not really about living. It’s about loving.

Despite the overwhelming odds against us.


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The Red Door

Do you ever wish you could go back in time? A time when you were clueless as to what the future held?

Do you ever wish you could walk through a door to the past?

A door where, once you passed through, you felt nothing but love and hope and happiness?


There are lots of doors I wish I could walk through again and see things differently. There are lots of doors I wish I had walked out of and never looked back.

But there’s one I still think of often. The red door to our first home. We were newly married, less than a year when we bought our first house and barely two years in when we had our first son. Everything was bright and shiny, like a gorgeous collection of silver when you display it on a shelf for all to see.


We were new to parenthood and hadn’t the faintest idea what that journey would hold. We had no idea as we held our newborn son that I would be expecting again when he turned one. And that we would welcome a daughter five and a half years later.

The first year I fell in love with Naaman again. It wasn’t that we ever fell out of love. It was just that I fell into it much deeper, I guess. Seeing him with Landon. Holding him as if he never wanted to let go. Landon’s whole head fitting into Naaman’s hand. It was too much and not enough all at the same time. Because there was much more love to come.


Everyone told me that even when we moved to a bigger house, we would miss the old one. I didn’t believe them. I didn’t believe that a tiny bungalow could hold enough meaning and memories. I thought we would leave it in the past. Move on indefinitely. But that’s not the case at all.


The truth is, I wish we could go back. I wish I could walk through that door again. Even if it’s just once. I could smell the years lived in the house. I could walk across the wood floor and hear it creak beneath me. I could go into the tiny kitchen and fix macaroni and cheese because I didn’t know how to cook much else.


I wish I had appreciated that time more. A time of simplicity when we were naive to the determination and effort it would take to keep going in our busy, much bigger life now.

It’s not that I would take away what we have now – what we’ve grown to. It’s just that I simply miss it. I miss the red door where just beyond it lived dreams unreached.


3 Ingredient Slow Cooker BBQ Pork Sandwiches

Summer is such a busy time. The weather is fine so we fill up our calendar with fun things to do. Is it just me or is there a rush to fit it all in before school starts in August?

We are good to go on quick breakfast and lunch choices but dinner is always my downfall. We get home and I’m like, uh oh, what are we going to fix quickly because these kiddos are hungry!

That’s why I loveeeee our slow cooker. I just put everything in it in the morning, set it to low and we’re free to go do what we want to do. When we get home later I can rest easy knowing we’ve got something yummy already cookin’ for dinner!

This three ingredient recipe for Slow Cooker BBQ pork sandwiches happens to be my go-to meal for busy days.

Slow cooker BBQ pulled pork sandwiches

Slowcooker BBQ Pork Sandwiches |

What you’ll need:

+ slow cooker (I also buy liners for super easy clean up!)
+ pork loin
+ 1 bottle or can of root beer
+ sweet BBQ sauce

Put the pork in the slow cooker. Pour one can of root beer in with it. Set to low for six hours. About 30 minutes before you plan to serve dinner, shred the pork with two forks or a meat shredder. Pour in a good amount of BBQ sauce and mix it around. Set on low for 30 minutes. You can use your favorite type of buns but we prefer hoagie buns!

Slow Cooker BBQ Pork Sandwiches

That’s it! You’re ready to serve and enjoy! I’m not kidding when I say your house will smell divine and you will be licking your fingers with this easy meal!

Now, we’re off to go swimming on this hot day but we’ll be enjoying our yummy BBQ pork sandwiches later!

Knock Your Socks Off

High heels are my love language (that and wine). Honestly, the higher the better because I hate being short. I don’t always get a chance to wear heels because, hello, I’m a mom of three kids who works from home.

But, I’ve got a red carpet event coming up and I get to dress up (bless it!)

Thankfully, I don’t have to worry about wearing stylish shoes without supportive socks. I’ve got my kushyfoot covers ready so I can have a fabulous night!


What do you think of these shoes? Sexy, huh? And you can’t even really detect the clever peep-toe solution. I’ve also used their flats-to-go before as they fold up and fit right in your purse. Ladies, you know how painful it can be to walk to your car after standing on your feet all night. I will be kickin’ off my heels and using these after the event so I don’t end up with blisters!


Plus, you know I am a runner now, right? I know. I don’t know how that happened either! I’ve struggled to find low socks that stay in place during a run. But I finally found kushyfoot athletic foot covers. They have a heel grip so they don’t slip down! They are definitely my new faves.

kushy foot athletic foot covers


Thanks to kushyfoot for knocking my socks off and giving me some new ones!

Simple Ham Roll-Ups for School Lunches

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I’m going to mention that thing nobody wants to mention – back-to-school! Have you noticed the school supplies, backpacks and lunchboxes beginning to fill store aisles? Yep, as much as we don’t want to admit it, it’s time to start preparing!

I just finished my first year of having a school-ager and there’s one thing that stressed me out more than anything – fixing school lunches. Not only did it need to be something I could fix fast but I also wanted it to be healthy. I heard from my son about all the bad-for-you foods filling kids’ lunches at school. And while I think it’s okay to let kids indulge on some days I don’t want to send him with cookies and chips every day. They need good nutrition to get them through a long day of learning!


What you’ll need:

+ flour tortillas
+ mayo
+ hillshire farm naturals® black forest ham
+ string cheese
+ toothpicks

To start, spread the mayo on one tortilla.


Place the lunch meat over the mayo (it sticks nicely!).


Place your string cheese on the tortilla like so. You can choose to use only two instead if you want bigger rolls.


Roll it up tight, put toothpicks in the roll so it stays and then slice the tortilla horizontally. Then slice in between your toothpicks.


Survey the awesomeness you just created before tiny hands steal them all. They kinda look like little sushi rolls!


This school year I’m not going to let myself get stuck in a sandwich rut. And you could add whatever you want to make it different each time! It really didn’t take much effort at all and my boys LOVED them. Ahem, so did my husband and I.


It’s also budget friendly and right now at Safeway you can save $0.75 on any ONE (1) Hillshire Farm Naturals® Black Forest Ham or Honey Roasted Ham with the digital coupon available through the Just4U online portal (expires 8/9/15 while supplies last).

Hillshire Farm® is offering a “Love It or We’ll Eat It” Guarantee for those who try the product. They will donate a lunch to someone in need if you “Love it” or provide a rebate.

So go stock up. Now is the time – the first day will be here before you know it!