1. Thank you for all the kind words and well wishes on my new job. My first day went well and I am very hopeful that it will be the place where I belong.
2. Even though we’re on a budget, I decided to break it and FINALLY buy myself some new clothes. I have been searching for what feels like forever for the perfect skinny jeans. I just never thought that they looked good on me. For some reason, the skin-tightness of them made me self-conscious. But I was determined yesterday and finally found a pair at New York & Company. I can’t wait to wear them with everything I own.
3. Speaking of clothes, I had a lightbulb moment on Easter morning. I bought a new dress with tons of color in it. When I pulled it out to wear it I thought, I can’t wear this. It’s too colorful! I stopped myself in the middle of that thought. I have become scared of color in my wardrobe! Why, you may ask? Because I’m scared that it will draw attention to me! OMG. What has become of me? I used to dress in order to get attention. Now I purposely dress in black and gray so people won’t look at me. The thought saddened me and I know this has got to change. I used to love bright colors. Color is going to make a comeback no matter how uncomfortable it makes me!
3. I am planning a small second birthday party for Brigham. It will just be family but I am excited because both my sisters will be in from out of town and all the kiddos will be here. I hope to get a nice photo of all five together! I decided to do a Clifford the Big Red Dog theme because Brigham loves his Clifford doll and sleeps with it every night.
4. I think I’ve figured out why I sometimes can be so unproductive on the homefront. All this time I thought it was because I am just a lazy person. But actually, I think it’s the reverse. I think I put such high standards on myself that if I can’t do it perfectly then I just won’t do it at all. For instance, I know I need to clean the boys’ bathtub. But the way I want to clean it will take at least an hour. Well, who the heck has a free hour to clean a bathtub? I know I don’t! So I decide to wait until I can do it perfectly, which is NEVER. And so the bathtub sits uncleaned for who knows how long.
I’ve got to lose this way of thinking if anything is ever going to get done. But I don’t know how to stop wanting everything to be perfect. And because things can’t be done “just so” they aren’t done at all. Does anyone know how the heck to stop this perfection madness?
5. I have been putting a lot of heartfelt thought into what I wrote about last week. The one thing that is providing me a lot of peace and comfort is my growing relationship with God. I recently purchased the One Year Bible and I am excited to read and learn and engross myself in His word. It has been ages since I owned a Bible. I am ready. I am so glad I am on this journey.
6. Speaking of books, I purchased a bunch of others with some rewards I earned at my last job. I have long awaited reading One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. Tears were streaming within the first few pages. I think it will change me. I was already keeping a gratitude journal but this has reinforced the importance of that task. Thank you to all who recommended it!
Ahhh, I am just catching up on your blog post about your new job… eeeck! I am thrilled for you friend! Congratulations!
Yay for new clothes and COLOR! I can’t get enough of it… I haven’t made the leap towards the colored jeans yet but I want some really bad. I’m afraid it will pull attention to my chubby legs though, haha
So excited for you with the 1 year Bible and also with One Thousand Gifts. If you decide the 1 year Bible isn’t “enough” of a devotion, check out Jesus Calling. It is a daily devotional that is just a paragraph or two, but deep and very good. It is written from Jesus’ perspective… I love it.
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I’m so glad that you stepped out of your comfort zone and bought clothes with colour. Strut your stuff.
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I recently read One Thousand Gifts also and really enjoyed it. Also, I can totally relate on to the getting nothing done if you can’t do it all perfectly thing. Thanks for better expressing what I feel all the time!
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I totally feel you on #4. My counselor actually told me that this is why perfectioists are procrastinators. It is very hard for me to break the pattern, but I so need to try! After all, the bath tub still needs to be cleaned, right? I love this post and your writing, Molly. Thank you for sharing!
Congratulations for your new job! I am sure if you love what you are doing, you can always have a good outcome and you can’t even tell yourself to quit…
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Rock the skinny jeans, Molly! I’ve got a pair and love them (they’re stretchy, thank God). But they were my best friends during the winter b/c skinny jeans are perfect for wearing high boots. So I think they’re a great investment!
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I’m breaking the budget tomorrow too–I’m getting a real live haircut. I don’t care if it has to come from savings, I haven’t had a haircut since October or November, and I NEED one. Maybe next time I’ll splurge on color too
I’m also delving more into the Bible lately. I’m working my way through the New Testament right now (though honestly, it’s been weeks since I read). I’ve never read the New Testament in its entirety before. I think I read so many books ABOUT the Bible that I never really read IT, which is a shame! Anyway, I’m right there with you.
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Molly, I’m very excited about your desire to get peace and comfort from the bible. I fully expect you’re gonna be blown away by his goodness and grace. One thing I remember hearing a few years ago in a sermon was to always follow the truth out of whatever situation you find yourself in. for me it clicked with my emotional overraction to almost everything. And in order to recognize the truth I have to study the bible.
I can’t believe Brigham is gonna be 2! crazy kids. I hope you have a fun sistery visit. And cute jeans. I like skinny jeans but can’t pull them off. oh and definitely keep color in your wardrobe! porcelain skin, blonde hair, blue eyes…color only enhances all that!
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I know what you mean about the cleaning. My problem though is that I will get started on a project and if someone else comes through and messes it up before I am done I will give up. For instance our kitchen counters accumulate piles/stacks of magazines / papers etc. I will get one counter completely clean and move to the next and then find one item on a counter I have already cleaned and it frustrates me so bad I feel like I am doing it for nothing and give up.
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