I almost published a post last week that was just . . . horrible.
It was basically me telling myself what a loser I am for losing my job and saying that I wasn’t good enough for God to love, blah, blah, blah. Yeah, I was having a really bad day.
I actually had it scheduled to publish and then at the last minute I remembered this post.
It was supposed to be the one word I concentrated on for 2012. Where did all that confidence in myself go? Where has all my hope gone?
So I lost a job. So what! It’s happened before and I’ve come out the other side okay. I always have.
God is trustworthy. He will never fail me. And no matter how much I think he can’t possibly love a person as broken as I am . . . He does love me. Immeasurably.
I’ve got some big decisions to make. So much so that my head hurts from all the stress. But no matter what I choose, whether it’s right or wrong, life will go on.
So I’m not going to publish that post where I was being totally shitty to myself.
I’m tired of negative-talking myself into a severe depression.
I’m going to try to remain positive instead. Checkity-check myself before I wreck myself.
2012 can still be a great year. It’s not over yet.