I notice my legs and arms are tan. This never used to happen when I worked. I was always inside. Typing and analyzing the day away. Only to emerge nine hours later. Tired, whittled down . . . white.
I gave my kids what was left of me. Smiled for them even though I wished to be between cool sheets. Minutes away from sleep.
Now I’m not working. And I’m still tired. But it’s a good tired.
I knew the exhaustion would still be there. Stay at home moms have the hardest job in the world. But at least now I go to sleep thinking of my happy family. Instead of wondering what I’ll have to force myself to do the next day.
It was a lazy morning. A jammies until noon and cereal for lunch kinda day. I let the boys do things they’re not supposed to do. Like climb on the back of the couch and play basketball with the ball hurdling toward our fancy dining room table.
I wonder what it would be like to have the freedom to always be a stay at home mom. I know it’s not possible for us. At least not right now.
We were getting so close to having our credit cards paid off before I lost my job. Now our plan had to abruptly stop.
We’ll start it up again soon. Pick up where we left off. Finish what we started, damn it.
We will.
Our boys will be better for it.
Will I be better for this break in being a working mom? Will I learn to appreciate the time I do have with my family before it’s time to go back?
I sure hope so.
It’s nap time and it’s quiet and I’ve got a lot of straightening up to do before the boys wake. Soon it will be noisy again.
Soon I will be tired again.
Good tired.
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Enjoyed this post! So glad you get this season to enjoy stay-at-home-mom hood. It’s hard sometimes to not live in the moment, and enjoy soaking it up, knowing that it will eventually have to end, isn’t it? I’m working on that in my own life. Being present right where I am, and living life to the full. So nice to “meet” you!
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I know for me, personally, I have found that I appreciate the down time and “off” days that much more since I started working from home. Even though I technically AM at home with my son all day, every day and don’t have to leave him at Daycare or PreSchool, running and managing a business is a full time job and not every second of my day can be devoted to him and play time and fun stuff. Since I’ve been at both ends of the spectrum with my business (crazy business to the point of working a lot of late nights and sleeping just a few hours a day) to the other end (enough to keep busy, but not to the point I was) I definitely appreciate the off days and playtime more. Enjoy this season you’re in.
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It’s pretty here with the new design!
Tired can be a great thing, when it’s the “right” kind of tired; I’m glad you’re enjoying your time with your guys
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love the new blog design! And great post–i love being a ‘good tired’.
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It IS a good tired — and thank you for reminding me of this, especially today. It’s been a rough day over here, so this really helped
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Sounds like you are enjoying your time at home!
I love the new look!
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Being a stay at home mom is a great thing! Hope you enjoy where you’re at…even though it wasn’t planned!
Michelle
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I love love love the new look!
And also adore this post. You ARE doing what’s best and you ARE a fantastic Mom.
<3
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Good tired is such a blessing.
Enjoy every moment of it.
And lots of coffee
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