Day 17 -
Weight: 121.6 lbs
I did not want to work out last night. I was so close to skipping because I was just so tired last night. But then I thought about the fact that I have to make it up after the program is over. So I went ahead and did it.
I don’t have to stop anymore during the exercises. I can do all of them all the way through. Pretty cool how your body can adjust over just a few days. I keep wondering about the future. I wonder if I can keep this up. Well, not every single day but working out regularly, I mean.
How will my body change if I keep working out for another month, two months, six months? Will I really be shredded? Can I make this happen? So many questions.
When I was younger I used to be so active. I danced competitively from the time I was three until I went off to college. Then I never exercised. Amazing how it used to be in my routine and then it disappeared. For years it wasn’t important to me and I don’t understand why.
I know exercise should be a priority. If I want to live a long and healthy life I have to place exercise into my schedule. But I’ve done this before. I’ve started exercising and done it for a month and then stopped. I can’t ever seem to keep the momentum going.
One night I decide to skip the gym and then another night goes by and then I just give up and stop at sonic for a chili cheese extra long coney dog and fries. It’s a pattern, I guess, and I don’t know how to stop.
I asked Naaman, who is a gym rat, why he goes to the gym. I asked if it was because he knows he needs to do it or because he likes to do it.
He said, “Because I enjoy it.”
Really? You enjoy getting up at 4:30 a.m. to go to the gym to work out? What planet are these people from? I certainly didn’t come from there.
But I love the feeling I get after I’m done with my workout. I’m breathing hard and it’s a huge release of I don’t know what. It’s just a release of . . . everything. I’m sweating and I’m smiling and I just feel better, you know?
If only I can find the trick to keep this going long-term.
Wow, this ended up being a novel. I guess I just needed to get this all out.