Day 3 -
So I’m three days in and I’m feeling good. When it comes down to it I would still rather be doing anything else than working out. But I feel motivated to push through. I don’t want this to just be a phase. I truly want to make exercise a regular activity in my life. I may not always be able to workout every night once the Shred is over but I want to make it a priority. I’m hoping that by the end of this program I will love it too much to quit.
My muscles are less sore today even though I’m still working the same muscle groups each night. I am thinking I might switch to level 2 earlier than I thought. We’ll see if I’m up to it.
Now let’s talk about willpower. As in, I have none. Last night was pizza night and I swore to all things holy that I was only going to have one piece of pizza and a big green salad. So what did I do once that pizza was in front of me? I ate four pieces. Yes, four. No salad. I can’t understand why I do this to myself. I am trying to pay attention to what I’m eating while I’m doing this program. I want to figure out why I eat what I eat. I feel like I have no willpower. If it’s in front of me I will indulge. And not just indulge. I will eat until I feel sick.
To me, it doesn’t really matter that I’m skinny. It doesn’t mean I’m healthy. In fact, I think my habits are really unhealthy. I shouldn’t eat until I feel like I’m going to throw up. I know that too much greasy food will make me feel sick and I still do it! Is it because I like the taste? Is it because I’m bored? I don’t know. I guess I’ll have to work on it.
Onto Day 4!